avalai

Today I got kind of ticked off. Or really pissed off. Or just mad in general.
At Minecraft.
This is a RANT

So. Today, the 1.5 update for Minecraft came out. Ya, it's cool. I mean, I haven't seen any of this rain stuff, and I got all the achievements in about 10 minutes, but it was pretty neat.
However.
I love stats. Love love love them. And so when I went to see my stats and saw "Has walked 14 meters, placed 3 blocks of dirt, has used a pickaxe 5 times, etc.", I was pretty mad. I've spent the last week or so building a pretty cool house made of sand and stone and glass and cactus, and I've placed hundreds of blocks of each. But my stats? It makes me feel like a new player, even looking at my house.

http://www.hungergamestrilogy.net/
http://www.thewrap.com/
So, today I found out who was (allegedly) cast as Katniss for the Hunger Games movie. I'm excited for the movie, but my trepidation of who will be cast to act it is dampening my excitement a bit. I'm not sure how I feel about them making one of my favourite books into a movie...It's bound to be a little different. Scratch that, a LOT different. There's no way this movie will be a Hunger Game fan's dream; perfectly matching plotline, realistic acting, somehow exactly the way every fan has imagined it. Because everyone imagined it differently, and after the movie script is written, the movie will be shot according to how the producers and director visualizes it. That's the trick with movies; it's always someone's interpretation of the book or script, but it's rarely yours. As far as I can tell, some Hunger Game fans would have been unhappy no matter who was cast; they don't want a movie at all. So this is our main character: Take a good look; She's pretty. Imagine her hair Katniss-brown. Hmm. She'll need some work, but I think she could do. Not my ideal image, but they can do lots with makeup these days. Her acting skills apparently got her an Oscar nomination, so 's got to be pretty good(or at least that's what you'd expect; I've seen some pretty bad acting get nominated for the Oscars). All in all, not so bad. Obviously not every fan's dream of Katniss, and this picture doesn't portray her particularly Katniss-like, but...I think I, at least, can live with her. Can you?

I hate being sick. In my math class, especially. It's the ONLY CLASS I have in which we use the chalkboard, and this teacher flings the chalk dust EVERYWHERE. Aaaaarghh. Sick I'm sick already, the dust gives me these awful headaches that I don't get in any other class. Math was painful enough, but my body automatically puts me to sleep every day in that class because I can't stand the pain in my head.
I've also been blowing my nose a LOT. About every 15 minutes in math class, and at least every half hour in my other classes. It's so gross!! I've actually gotten several nosebleeds from it >.> I feel like a mess.
And today, I'm hungry. I've eaten plenty, but I still feel really hungry. It's not even like I just snacked all day, either. I ate a good breakfast, a good dinner...But I still feel ravenous O_o It's quite strange.

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So, you know those times where everything seems to be falling apart, and at the worst possible moment you wonder if anyone actually ever notices you? I'm having one of those. There's something wrong with my boyfriend -- We had a huge fight, I guess you would call it, and now, even though we're still together and all, I talked to him this morning and he seems kinda restrained, even though I was in a great mood and chattering away like normal. I love him so much, I wish there were no problems between us. I'm a bit confused why he's like that, even though when I talk to him it'll probably all be my imagination.
But anyways, confidence issues. I had a confidence break down last night, and on Facebook I posted a message asking anyone who noticed it to like it or post a comment to it. So far, two people have liked it. I don't expect a lot of people to ever view my LiveJournal, even less than how many people see my Facebook, but I'm gonna go ahead and do the same experiment here. I'm an idiot.



I love you. I'm so sorry.

My parents are paranoid. The doors must always be locked, I'm still a little girl, I shouldn't have a boyfriend, I'm not allowed to drink more than a tiny sip of anything with the tiniest bit of alcohol in it, I shouldn't be kissing or snuggling with my boyfriend, and they have to know where I am at all times. It frustrates me, because I want to be free of all the nagging, the attempts to control my life, the glares when I resist.
Some people's families are so lucky. Their parents are okay with them trying things, and they can be friends with whoever they want. My parents will actually tell me if they don't like one of my friends. I'm still friends with my first boyfriend, but my parents go on and on still about how much they didn't like him.
I'm sorry for ranting about this so much. My family isn't really all that bad, but I do wish they were a bit more relaxed. I'd like to be able to do some things for myself for once.
My father is a Life Coach. And he tries to coach my life, no matter how much I tell him not to. He's also a control freak. He wants everything to be done with his knowledge and consent. He quit a well-paying career, in the middle of rather hard financial times, while supporting a large family of four children, to do his 'dream job'.
Does anyone else have trouble understanding why he did this? Sure, I mean, dream job, woopee. But that was not the right time to do so. Sure, you can make lots of money doing it, but 1) is it enough to support your family on while you're becoming famous? and 2) he doesn't seem to realize that it could take years to get up to the point where you're making enough money to catch up to your old income. We're a 6-person 1-dog family, living in a house designed for a new couple and their baby. I'm so confused by him. This is the type of thing that you do when most of your children have moved out to have their own lives, when you only have to support maybe your youngest child and your wife.
And my life doesn't suck nearly as much as some people's lives, it's true. I have friends who've had to live off of one parent's minimum wage job. There are people all over the world who's lives are worse than mine. So don't get me wrong, this isn't a rant about how much my life sucks (at least, the second part isn't :P) This is a rant about people's motives, and why don't they THINK before they do something like that? I'm praying that I can save up the money myself to go to college, cause I'm not sure I'll be able to get any money from my parents when I need it for that.

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Book giveaway - Enter to win a copy of Mockingjay!

Hunger Games, Catching Fire, & Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins.

SUCH a great series -- I can't wait till the final book comes out!
August 23, 2010. Perfect date, my friend introduced me to the series, and that's what he's getting for his birthday, on the 24th! We're both really excited, it's gonna be a terrific story, judging from the ending of the last one :D
http://www.myhungergames.com/
If you haven't read the first two, I highly recommend them. For reviews and summaries:

Hunger Games:
http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/2767052.The_Hunger_Games
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Hunger_Games
http://bookingmama.blogspot.com/2009/05/review-hunger-games.html

Catching Fire:
http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/6148028-catching-fire
http://www.yareads.com/catching-fire-synopsis/news/855
http://www.karinsbooknook.com/2009/06/05/catching-fire-by-suzanne-collins-review/

Music (one of my favorite parts of reading -- Background music! :D):
http://blog.scholastic.com/ink_splot_26/2009/01/the-hunger-games-soundtrack.html

Bleach episode 230 - english dubbed - came out last night. yay.

It's so weird, WHERE'S THE STORYLINE GONE?!?! I mean, they had a good plot going there, with the Arrancars and Hueco Mundo and all that stuff, and then, poof! There's the stories of Ichigo's pre-shinigami life, and now they're having a battle against zanpakutōs? Seriously! Why can't they ever finish what they start before being interrupted? T_T It's so frustrating for me.
Plus, a zanpakutō war...I'm not complaining, it's quite interesting and everything, but still...at the end of this mini-arc, everyone will be alive again. Am I the only one just a bit confused by these things? >.< blarg.

My old username, ManaDragonMagic, from when I called myself Mana, and I loved dragons and magic. It seems kind of childish now, but I still love that name, and I still love dragons and magic. Even though I feel a bit silly using it, I still do. Just like my current name, Avalai, is derived from Avalon. A two letter difference, and although Avalon often appears in books for younger people, I still love this name, Avalai of Avalon. I have been using these two names for a very long time, and I still use them and love them and use them shamelessly. I guess being childish doesn't bother me much ^_^

This is my sad attempt to make a list of the anime I've watched...to satisfy my own curiosity -_-
~ Kiba <3
~ Bleach <3
~ Fate/Stay Night <3
~ Soul Eater <33
~ Rosario + Vampire
~ Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles
~ Tsubasa Chronicles 2nd Series
~ InuYasha
~ Magician's Academy
~ Vampire Knight
~ Vampire Knight Guilty
~ The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya
~ The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya
~ Fruits Basket
~ Honey and Clover
I also watched a bit of Hellsing...but I didn't like it all that much. I don't really like guns, as you may be able to tell. I think there's a gun in one scene of Fate/Stay Night, and the vampire Hunters in Vampire Knight have a gun or two, but they rarely use them x_x
I'm sure there's more...darn it... xP but I can't remember T_T
In my bookshelf right now, my poor manga collection is as follows:
~ 23-24 Bleach
~ 1-5 Vampire Knight
~ Heaven's Will
~ 1 The Gentlemen's Alliance +
That last one's kind of weird, I can't find any significant relation to the title >.< huh.
Manga I've read, usually borrowed from my friends or the library:
~ Vampire Knight <3
~ Bleach <3
~ Fruits Basket
~ Honey and Clover
~ Fall in Love like a Comic <3
~ Captive Hearts
~Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles
~ Black Bird <3
~ 1/2 Prince <3
Keep in mind that I never actually finished reading most of those series xP